Dear Brother or Sister In Life, This page is dedicated to those who have been injured in the battlefield of life and love.
It is also dedicated to my fallen friend, Richard, who chose to take his own life rather than live through the relentless mental assault of the following paragraphs.
He is one of many millions who are now fatal casualties to the destructive power of love and loss.
You may be under the same assault as my friend.
But I want to encourage you to keep pushing forward.
Love can return and even better than before.
If you are a person suffering with rejection find your strength from those who know its crushing power.
I have taken the journey far behind enemy lines and returned.
The mission of this site is to simply reach out a hand to my brother and sister who still desire to serve their family.
Then lead you away from dangerous territory and guide you and your family into safety.
Do not fall too deep in the cold pit of bitterness as I did.
It will only lead to more despair.
Guard your heart so you do not get trapped in an emotional prison.
Do not underestimate this brutal force.
Get help from books and professionals before you completely fail your family.
Your heart and family may be weakened, but your efforts to get help are your strength.
Your injuries may be severe but they are not fatal.
One day you will recover.
You will be stronger.
You will find love again.
You will have the advantage.
You will rise again to fight another day.
Lady Antebellum♥ One Day You Will You feel like you're falling backwards Like you're slippin' through the cracks Like no one would even notice If you left this town and never came back You walk outside and all you see is rain You look inside and all you feel is pain And you can't see it now But down the road the sun is shining In every cloud there's a silver lining Just keep holding on (just keep holding on) And every heartache makes you stronger But it won't be much longer You'll find love, you'll find peace And the you you're meant to be I know right now that's not the way you feel But one day you will.
Right now you may not believe that.
Your life took a direct hit.
Your heart is now bleeding from rejection.
Your mind is consumed in pain.
All your life energy has deflated and just breathing air is a labor.
Your body is paralyzed in shock, disbelief, and horror.
You are baptized into an angry sea of hostile emotions with no compass, no captain, and no sail.
You are left behind to drift by those who you thought were anchors in life.
Your cry for help becomes merely an echo in an ocean of deep darkness.
You call out to a silent God who has abandoned you at a time you need Him most.
You sense your spirit becoming a black hole of despair and your closest friend is now a distant planet.
You may want to give up and surrender.
You may want to run away from this invisible heartless beast.
You may want to hide and protect your children.
But it's too late.
They have been convicted as victims and condemned to live by court orders.
You have also been captured.
You are sentenced to solitary confinement without justice, without mercy, without rights, and without appeal.
Your most attractive qualities were discarded like an old stained sweater that no one will ever wear.
You seek to be released from these chains of heartache but no one has a key.
Your free and loving heart has become a prisoner in a cell of bitterness and hate.
You feel trapped in depression and can't escape from the confusion of your own mind.
Your child has become the only strength and hope of your life.
Perhaps you want to save your children but they are just beyond your reach.
You try to touch and comfort them from behind your walls.
But they sense your fear and torment.
You are helpless as you watch innocent tears flow from the pain of their torn soul.
As the days go by you are stripped of all pride and left to walk naked in shame and humiliation.
Every thought becomes a demonic voice of accusation, mockery and blame.
You look beyond your battered fence but there are no saviors.
You are starving for a touch of compassion from the one who abandoned your heart, but you are fed only silence and neglect.
You thirst for one drop of hope from the hand of your lost love, but now love flows to someone else.
Instead, your trusted partner has become a willing weapon of Satan to break what's left of your heart and soul.
All your most sincere heartfelt vows are simply violated and voided.
Your solid union of love ignites into a front line war zone of hate.
The children you shared now become objects of conquest and divide.
You may try to appear strong but it is only to hide increasing weakness.
Inwardly, you pray that death will break this empty emotional mask.
You are surviving but barely exist.
Everyday activities have become meaningless and pointless.
There seems to be no relief, no hope, and no purpose.
The world moves on but you are a wandering ghost.
Your soul is tormented daily in an unquenchable fire of shame.
Every minute of life is an eternity in hell.
Your bed becomes a coffin of rotting regrets that cannot be closed.
You try to sleep to escape your torrent of tears.
But even in sleep you are betrayed while nightmares haunt your mind.
When you awake the nightmare is real.
You wonder if hell itself can be more abusive, more lonely, more painful.
It seems even nature has turned her hand against you.
Like a bolt of lightning, she has struck property and possessions.
She has burned up savings and wealth.
Family photos are blown from their frames.
The images smile yet they must be sentenced to death.
It is too painful to bear these fading memories of another life.
They are removed and buried alive in boxes never to rise again.
Bitterness continues to bite deeper into your soul.
You wonder how a careless human being can have this much power.
You vow to never give anyone this kind of control again.
Relationships become artificial, temporary, shallow, and sexual.
You feel yourself becoming cold toward romantic love.
You find yourself being buried in a deep pit of anger, grief, and apathy.
Soon the root of bitterness thickens as it feeds on self-hate and unforgiveness.
We cannot bare the thoughts of our own self-condemnation any longer.
We are choking on our own dirt and desperate to escape.
We may not have ever been acquainted with drugs or alcohol, but now they have become a dependable friend to help cope with pain.
You understand this is all wrong but now the root has become too invasive.
It begins to devour reason and will and gives birth to denial.
Your friends and family are concerned about your health.
Others begin to notice a dangerous quality beginning to emerge.
There are more and more legal and financial problems.
But these concerns are not enough to slow down this powerful force.
The root thickens with aggression and addictions.
Your sense of right and wrong becomes distorted and distant.
The root begins to speak, think and control its victim.
We are unsuccessful hiding our true identity.
Those who pushed us into this madness mock our misery.
They now feel justified and superior for discarding a worthless life.
They enjoy slinging insults and slander.
Our own children become distant and strange toward us.
Our productivity becomes reduced.
Our focus is failing.
Our future is fading.
This pushes us deeper down the throat of self-destruction.
This invisible beast will attack work, school, home and health.
We lose sense of what is real and fantasy.
Our dangerous behavior becomes more bold and brazen.
We waste days, weeks and months on senseless activities and addictions.
We lose a sense of shame and fear of consequence.
Daily household chores become neglected.
Our circle of friends become darker.
The old idea of an "outcast and loser" is now our best friend.
We feel comfort from people with criminal records, drug addictions, and money problems.
There is little or no contact from the old world.
We don't care and don't want their guilt or pity.
We blame them.
We hate them.
The root grows deeper.
The dirt in this pit becomes overwhelming.
This bitter root injects its poison into our body and mind.
Even our children are ashamed of this creature we have become.
Our self-image is shattered.
Our friends isolate us to avoid being infected by our deadly depression.
Perhaps we lose a license, a car, or a job.
But these wake-up calls are silenced with more excuses.
Instead of dealing we deny.
Instead of coping we condemn.
The root takes full control.
The issues become deeper and more complex.
This invisible root continues to invade and strangle our life.
We find ourselves becoming what we despise.
Our personal qualities become filthy, unattractive, and disrespectful.
There are more and more conflicts with our kids, clerks, and cops.
We are described with words such as "loser", "bitch", "ass", and "jerk.
" We were once violated victims now we have become the villains.
The proud family name is discarded and disgraced under headings like "Divorces", "Restraining Orders", and "Weekend Arrests.
" The efforts to dig out of this despair are futile.
The hole is too deep now.
We are sleeping but in a brain-dead comma.
We are alive but in an emotional prison.
Life Lessons In Heart Surgery 1.
Rejection is the surgical razor blade into the human heart.
2.
The larger the heart the deeper the pain.
3.
To be successful it must be done without the sedatives of drugs or alcohol.
4.
Bitterness, hate and unforgiveness will contaminate this procedure.
The heart needs to be clean to complete the process, and it takes longer if it is infected.
5.
Once sterile, the heart can heal.
6.
When the heart is healed it is healthier, stronger, and wiser.
7.
The heart can now be filled with new compassion and love like never before.
♥ Lady Antebellum: One Day You Will Lyrics Songwriters: Clay Mills;David Haywood;Hillary Scott;Charles Kelley