She was from a Country right next to mine in Australia.
We fell in love but the two things we wanted and needed out of life kept us from marriage.
I am sad I made my mistake, I wonder if this story will stop you.
Her name was Jude.
She was a very pretty girl and had wonderful curves and wonderful long brown hair.
As a kisser she could not be matched, her ability and enjoyment in the act of kissing has never been equaled in all the girls I have kissed.
She was gentle, honest, considerate and she was very funny.
I met her through her brother who I was working with.
He had told her that I was a nice guy and He had told me that I would like his sister.
Wee finally met and had drinks together with her brother and resolved to go out again at another date by ourselves.
I remember later that night in my bedroom kissing her and Jude saying that she cannot make love to me as she does not know me well enough.
I had a lot of respect for that refusal and I asked her what she wanted to know about me.
She asked me questions and we lay together holding hands and kissing from time to time as I told her all about my family and my life so far.
Before I knew it Jude was undressing me and she was making love to me.
It had not been my purpose as I had talked that night to make love to her, it had simply been to begin the process of her knowing me.
Up till that point in my life, I had not been refused sex by a girl I had kissed.
Jude was something else and it wasn't long before we were in love.
It came time when Jude had to go back to New Zealand and she told me if I came and moved back to her country that she would marry me.
I had a very successful multi level marketing business at the time and that was my conflict and the reason I could not move.
I asked her to stay in my country Australia and she didn't want to stay.
But I couldn't go with her and still earn money from my business.
It broke my heart when I lost Jude.
I wish now I had not have made that decision to stay home and build that business as later Jesus told me to leave that business and it fell apart.
I know sleeping with girls outside of marriage isn't what a Christian should be doing, but I wasn't a good boy in those days.
I hope some of you find answers in this story.
Go with the love guys.